Today morning I heard this song, posted by a music lover in a music group. (Posted at the end of the article). Its after ages that I heard this song. I had almost like forgotten its existence itself. I was listening and suddenly the lyrics of the song jolted me. I could relate myself so much to the song and my thought went back to last few years.
The general gist of the song is very simple but has a deep meaning. Its telling a story about a Lamp and Storm. The night was dark and everything around was in darkness. And this small lamp decided to light up and eliminate this darkness. Somewhere else a storm was also getting ready to destroy everything. It was far greater in strength than the small Lamp. It attacked the lamp but the Lamp decided to stand and face it, fight it out. Everything around this Lamp, all its near and dear ones left him alone. It was under deep sadness. And a time came when it decides to give up, but then got help and was again back to its do or die spirit. It again starts fighting with the storm. The storm tried its best, the lamp also got tired, but it never stopped flashing. The storm tried its best to attack the lamp but could never make the lamp submit. And finally it left the Lamp alone to glow.
Even in life we do face such storm in the form of ill-fate. There are times when it goes on attacking us. What it takes to fight out is to never give up. And I am telling this from my own personal experience. Yes I too went through a phase where I thought of ending everything. Bhaisa, Bhabhi and then Babuji and finally when it was Maasa, I found myself falling deep down into a darkness from where I was finding it difficult to come out. I still consider it a divine intervention which stopped me. Voice of Minniedi calling me and I was jolted out. Something never possible as she was miles away. But after that I realised what great mistake I was making. Come on friends, giving up is easy, not a big deal. How about those other close ones who’ll next go through pain because of our action. To just think of our own pain and end it, that selfish!!
Another lesson I learned was the fact that we are never really Alone. You loose near and dear one’s, the pain will stay always as they can never be replaced. But if you look around, reach out to others, you’ll find many others beside you. Many among them you might even find becoming more of family. You’ll end up forging bonds which might not be same as your lost one’s but neither less either.
It never makes sense trying to think about why’s and how’s. Because we never know the reasons behind what happens to us. Fate is something which has always been a mysterious stranger to all. And the more we try pondering on those questions, more chances are we’ll end up falling deep down. If we continue to carry our burden of past miseries and weaknesses, chances are we’ll never be free and stay devoid of getting happiness. Last few years taught me that happiness comes, not by helplessly thinking, but by living it in all the moods of life.
I do am lucky to find likes of Amby, Saara, Preeti, Shiza, and so many in my life, who made my life more beautiful by making me feel loved. (Still can never forget the thrashing by Amby hahaha). And not the least, Minniedi, Barnalidi, Prateek and Uttam, who took me as their own family. And thanks Shantanuda for forcing me to jot down everything here today, it does feel light, as if some burden taken off!!!
And here’s the song!!!