I was amazed to read the book “If God is so Good, Why do I hurt so Bad” by David Biebel. It’s a story of his struggle, how his first son was killed by a rare degenerative genetic disease. If that was not bad enough his second son was then stricken with the same ailment. The book is about how to deal with suffering, and overcoming suffering and pain by submitting/surrendering you to God.
This book helps in developing an honest sense of how one might react to such incredible pain. I remember a time when I would always think since God would not give me more than I can bear; that no one close to me would die because I would not be able to bear it. I realized later how wrong I was!!
The death of a close one can be all consuming at first. Rest others with you get so neglected. It is ok to grieve and need time to come to grips with the situation. The author almost turned alcoholic, but he also embraced God. When things got too tough and he thought for sure that he was at his end he was sustained by some thing – Held up by Someone!!! God did not abandon him in the time of greatest struggle. Rather the Lord kept him from being wholly consumed with grief. The author’s reaction in the end was to turn more fully to God, and to embrace God. He was not broken nor did he fall into sin. This part I found so connected with when I thought about my own. I too had few very nice close friends who would always push me whenever I would feel down. Most importantly, God sent me someone like Minniedi to see I don’t falter and end up destroying my life, which at one time I was tempted to. He didn’t abandon me either!!!
It is this small bit of the book that made reading the entire thing worth it to me. Not that the rest was bad, but reading how another fellow human facing the same reacted to this was too inspiring. The pain that he went through and still experiences in this book is obvious. There is no denying that he was in agony. He is still able to turn to God, and he now has a much deeper understanding of pain suffering and healing.
Some people do suffer and that is not God’s fault. God does not want us to be in pain, but there is a use for the pain. It is like God reframing our perspective on the pain. Traits will devolve in our live through the suffering. It will take time, but there are benefits to the trial. God has a reason for what he does.
I am glad I read this book; it puts things related to grief in a new perspective. It helps you overcoming grief yourself. The very grief which still works detrimental to me at times, the pain I would feel thinking about my Brother, my parents, now I see differently. Yes the Lord did take away too precious ones from my life but he gave me few other irreplaceable ones, who are like his gift, his blessings for me!!